When You didn’t Like My Car

It is funny how one remembers episodes or flashes of some events that happened with him few years ago….the “few” suddenly become a decade, then more, making memories become hazy…just like the yellowish old pictures that make us wonder if colors in the past weren’t as flashy as they are today!



I still recall that day, in a certain year, at the beginning of the past decade, I was in my village Kfarhata along with my family, and I remember you came along with your family to have lunch at our place…As a young adult with the teenager still in me, I couldn’t but like you, find you funny, and of course beautiful…Someone had whispered in my ears that I should perhaps love you! I couldn’t back then, ahh that family thing that is always there... All I remember from that day was you not liking my car and hating the silly drive from Kfarhata to Kaftoun. No, I did not impress you with it… but who cared at the time; I was happy and you were beautiful!



When you left Kfarhata that day, I said to myself, destiny, that same implacable destiny that destroys some and helps others will reunite us. I didn’t know “he” had already made other plans and I didn’t assume our ships won’t sail in the same direction. I left to Montreal and you came to Beirut, I came back to Beirut few years later to find out that you had already left… Life evolved differently for both of us and I admit I still feel I missed a chance that happens once in a lifetime!

In few hours I will be looking at you crossing an important milestone in your life, I will be smiling, admiring your beauty and maybe regretting not approaching you when time seemed to be appropriate. It is true people grow up, learn from their mistakes, and evolve; I acknowledge I did so, but by paying a high price! Chance smiles once in a lifetime, but sometimes more…
Till then, I will be evolving in my own way to deserve someone like you!